Reflections!!

Hi, I am Mukul Bisht, 4th year student of Bachelor of Design, IIT Guwahati. I had a well settled life just before, Nov. 2007, but after that I have developed some kind of philosophical attitude. Before sweet November, everything was going on track, but may be because of a lot of free time in my last semester, things have gone crazy. “An empty brain is the devils house” is the right quote i guess (khali dimag shaitan ka ghar) . Whatever it is for…good or bad…I have started thinking…all those thoughts which were buried under some ambitions, aspirations, expectations, feelings…but I think now they have suffered much and its time to let them out… let them have their feelings said, let’s hear to them.

I found a split personality inside me – a “moral, good, honest” one and the other “devil, bad, corrupt”. Both gets a chance to dominate, and usually it happens like this. Devil does the bad things, without putting a lot of thinking, and then the moral repents for them and atone for the devil’s crimes. This way I have managed to sustain, and may be every other human being thinks like that. I don’t know. I am also asking questions like what I am here for?, what bigger purpose I am going to solve?, Do I need to do things which are not of my interest?…etc… I still haven’t got the answers and my quest continues. These type of questions mainly come after watching some inspirational movies or movies questioning existence…like “Truman Show”, “Jerry Maguire”, “Then Namesake”, “Mithya”…to name a few…

Really trying to find out my true aspiration. I will call it my “precious”. The “precious” for which their will be a craving inside me to work on that, will be passionate about it and will found true pleasure in it. I have found things in which I am good, but I am trying to find what I am really great at? It could be sales, designing, writing, or just talking to people. I am bound to be great at something. I also have an approach for this. I am exhausting things, basically cutting them from my list, in which I am “good” meanwhile seeking for the great one. Hope this quest takes me to my great talent.

Waiting for you my “precious”….